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Repeat me?

And this line I wrote once, describes me the best, anyday.

'I betray the ones I betray others for.'

The trait of selfishness sticks to me unlike the pink enamel paint on my nails. The day when I resolve to hurt no one, is the day I hurt maximum, include me.

This phase, I guess, is now my lifestyle's habit. It is cumbersome to stand up everytime. But, isn't that what life is all about?


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